My Reasons

Why can’t anyone see? I am not ok, I am not well… I am trying to scream out trying to call out… I have no reasons to feel this way, I have no need for your help, I have the perfect life. This is what you say. But I need help, for reasons I do…

Ripped

I wish I could live life ripped in pieces, then I would be the real me. A mosaic of ripped flesh and exposed bone casually walking down the street. If you rip away my smile, a sour pout will be behind it, rip the laughter along with it, there appear the incoherent sobs. Rip that…

Life’s Roadmaps

Three seconds old your first breath cold and sterile the hands that touch you are covered in latex; in a naked cry you came into the world. Five years old your worries are simple; your favorite color, the playground swings at recess, the monsters hidden in your closet, under your bed. Now you are thirteen,…

Burned

Fire Hot, burning fire liquid fire you have poured down my throat. Acid acrid hate you forced down into my heart. My hands are immobilized my feet can not move. My breath is gone my chest has a million pounds on it. Betrayal eats flesh like sulfuric acid melting it away. Your hands are the…

Ocean Wave

How long does it take for ocean waves to reach their journey’s end? I am an ocean wave that is tossed by the strong wind, the currents beneath me push me on towards the shore. I am pulled and stretched over the dark waters that lay underneath, I do not know what monsters are waiting…

The Days

The days run over me like horses… and I wonder if my life will ever change, if the love that I seek will ever find me if my heart will ever be filled again. Their strong and robust legs kick me… and realization kicks in: I may forever travel like a lost soul around the…

If Only

If only it was like before Simple, easy, natural It was like breathing Something that came by instinct. If only it was like once ago So much happiness and love Our thoughts could be shared without penalty Our minds were always the same. A fog has fallen over our love, It swallowed it made it…

Let Me

Let me hold you like a promise a glass one, much more delicate, I will not break it, I know you are not shatter-proof. I will make a home for you in my arms, I will build pillars to support your dreams as you sleep in my embrace at night. Let me keep you like…

Depend On You

Teach me to depend on you a host to a parasite, be my life support be the ground in which my roots grow be the air that I, as a necessity, breathe. Nurture a symbiotic relationship with me be the strong one, I will be the weak protect me under your shadow be the light…

Inner Fight

There it comes, I can hear it calling a fiery need that beckons me to comply burning, aching, wanting. It gallops towards me, flooding my mind blinding judgements that tell me otherwise persistent, insisting and demanding. I feel it nagging at my core, becoming burdensome, an exquisite heat I must ignore maddening biting temptation. It…

A Beginning

A sunset, the ending of a lifetime of memories. A sunrise, the beginning of newborn experiences. Life is a cycle of never-ending events. And standing on this mountain today I stare at the clouds that dance by and wonder if they have regretted their journeys. For what is in a cloud’s lifetime but to cry…

Twenty and Four

Time passes like a coward that runs from its death, trampling over me, marking me with its dirty shoes, each day aging me more and more, like an overused notebook collecting experiences, memories and sadnessĀ on my pages. Twenty and four of earth’s years have inhabited this body, they have laid me to bed each night…